Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Today is Angel-Day

Today is the day when I sadly look back to one year ago; both the happiest and saddest day of our life as husband and wife. We had just gone through the emotional roller-coaster of having our first attempt at IVF canceled and converted into an IUI. Imagine our complete and utter surprise when two weeks later, we got a call from the doctor's office telling us that we were pregnant! G wasn't home at the time (he was at his school working in his classroom), so I called him immediately to tell him the news. I was ecstatic!

The day was a whirlwind of emotions. First, elation, joy and relief. Yes, we were finally going to be parents.

Then, worry, panic and devastation came several hours later when I started bleeding. I knew it was over. Even though I had to go through bloodwork every three days for the next week and a half until my beta level went down below two before they would officially confirm that I had miscarried, I knew it was too good to be true from the start.

So for a few short hours, one year ago, I lived the dream of being a Mommy. Right now, I should be holding my four-month-old little-one in my arms. Instead, my angel is in heaven with God. Please take care of our angel, Lord. Let him/her know how much we loved them - even if only for the blink of an eye. You are missed, Angel Baby...you are missed.

10 comments:

Missy said...

I'm weeping with you Teri. And praying for you today. Thank you for sharing about your Angel baby.

createinmeacleanheart said...

You are in my prayers.

Erin said...

o i am so sorry to hear that. i had miscarriage too. they are just awful to go through. ur in my thoughts...

seriously? said...

Thinking of you...

Here from L&F.

Kristen said...

I cannot believe a year has passed already. You and G are in my thoughts and prayers...you always are!

Tina623 said...

I am sorry for your loss. Sometimes life just isn't fair and people suffer when they shouldn't. You'll be in my thoughts.

Amber said...

I am so sorry. These anniversaries are just the hardest, aren't they? Hoping you'll be good to yourself today and that tomorrow is an easier day. Hugs.

-Amber
(here from Lost & Found)

Hafsa said...

Oh my gosh, I had no idea you had miscarried. It is a sad but beautiful story. Never give up the hope that one day you will be blessed with a child and YOU WILL be a mommy. Despite everything, you are a brave woman!

Hafsa

Megan said...

So sad...I just pray that God will allow you to experience that joy you had for a few hours for a whole nine months. I pray blessings upon blessings for you and Greg!

Ter said...

oh, I feel so bad, I didn't realize it's been so long since I looked at your blog (so much crazy-ness going on in my life as you may have read about on my blog) and I'm very sorry I missed your angel day. ((HUGS))