Saturday, April 05, 2008

An update & a little inspiration!

Wow - I can't even begin to tell you how crazy my first two weeks of full-time work have been. This was my first week teaching the 3-year-olds and, while I know that I'm just starting out and I have to give myself a little transition time, I will openly admit to all of you that the 3s are not my area of expertise. It isn't so much that I don't know what to DO with them, but moreover that I get antsy (I think this is the former public school teacher in me) just letting them play for pretty much half of the time that they are with me. Especially since they only see me two days a week. I know that's what they need and it is really constructive for them, but I just can't help but feel like I should be DOING more. That said, however, there will be things that I will change for next year about the way I structure the 3-year-old program, but seeing as how I only see the kids 2 days a week (meaning only 14 more times this school year), I don't see the point in trying to change things like that now. I did, however, institute a new behavior program because I just didn't like the one that was in place before & I felt like this age-group needed something a little more visual to hold them accountable for their behavior. So we are now using a behavior card system & the first day was very successful, so I think that's a keeper. It's basically the same system that I use with my 4s and I basically have almost NO behavior issues with them anymore, so I think it's a good one!

I figure that now would be a good time for an infertility update as well. I am still on my birth control pills for our 3rd attempt at IVF. I have one more week of those to go & then I wait for AF. Once she arrives, I will go for u/s and b/w on day 2, and I will also start my Lupron on that day. This basically means that this is all right around the has been helpful about not letting me stress and putting it all out of my mind, so that has been helpful. I'm ready to be hopeful and optimistic again, but at the same time, I don't want to get my hopes up because I know that only means a greater let-down if/when things go wrong, but what else can you do? I also got the results of my "experimental" bloodwork back (AMH or Anti-mullerian hormone). The normal range of these results is 0.7-3.5 and mine came back at 0.7, which basically means that while I am within the normal range, any lower would indicate an ovarian reserve issue. So, in other words, I have now had 2 blood tests confirming that, while my numbers are "normal," they are also both borderline for diminished ovarian reserve, confirming what my doctor has been suspecting since August.

We also recently got a copy of my medical records from my current RE, so that I can begin seeking a second opinion. There is a clinic in NJ that does free phone consultations & they are supposedly one of the best in the area for dealing with poor responders (to ovary-stimulating meds), such as myself, so it sounds like a perfect match, even though it will be a long haul to get to appointments, etc.

Finally, I thought I would add in a little bit of inspiration that God has given me over the past couple of days. Although my new work schedule is crazy, the mid-afternoon calm while the 3 & 4 year old daycare kids are napping has given me a great opportunity to work a more-focused devotional time into my day (I sit at a table in the hall, outside the room of nappers). I have been using the Daily Bread devotionals this week (let me know if you have other suggestions - I have really been in want of something a little more intensive) & two of them really hit home for our current situation right now. I hope you enjoy them!
Click here and here to read them!


Hafsa said...

Hey Teri,

I totally understand the part about not wanting to get your hopes up in case this round of IVF doesn't work. I was listening to Catholic radio the other morning after breaking down the night before and they just happened to be discussing infertility with one caller. Anyway the host of the show recommended that she check out a web site called Pope Paul VI institute and look up a man named Doctor Hilger. So if you're looking for a second or even a third opinion you could check them out. I figure if my Provera (and if comes to that) or the Clomid don't work, I'd check them out.

Megan said...

Hope this isn't a dumb question - was it good to get the results (.7 - borderline) b/c they can treat you accordingly, or does it put you at an inbetween place that makes it harder? Just trying to understand and be aware of where you're at with this. SOunds like you'll have alot going on in the upcoming weeks. I'll keep checking in to know how and when (appts and stuff) we can pray for you! good luck with those 3 yr olds! :)

Anonymous said...

good luck to you!!

Anonymous said...

Hello! Love Daily Bread. We try to read that every morning. Do you ever read Beth Moore's blog? Living Proof? She doesn't blog every day but there's been some good stuff and I think she also has a daily something or other. Haven't found it yet.

We are praying for you are you begin your next round. I understand the whole, trying not to get your hopes up... that's so hard. You want to be hopeful but it's so painful when it doesn't come out how you wanted it to!

I was going to tell you too we did the Creighton Model and really liked that (if wouldn't have gotten Angel would still be on it). I've heard some amazing things about it's founder, a DR that specilizes in IVF in Omaha, NE, I know it's a ways from you but might be worth looking into.

Take care! Have a great Sunday!

Erica said...

I'll be wishing for the best outcome for your IVF! Extra prayers can't ever hurt, right?

I must tell you that you might just be a saint to deal with 3-year-olds all day long! I love Cate so much, but even as much as I love her, some days are extremely difficult. It takes a special kind of person to handle someone else's child all day with some semblance of grace. Thank goodness for people like you!